it has been a tough week for me. I even skipped my Weight Watchers meeting Wednesday morning. Not because I thought I had gained, but I just wasn’t feeling it. I weighed in at home, stayed the same as last week, and figured I’d start over again Wednesday.
Leading up to Wednesday, I hadn’t done horrible, I hadn’t gone way over my points, I just wasn’t in it. My will power was lacking. I had a couple of meals last week that consisted of snacks because my one bite turned in to three or four or five, “eating up” my points. I was supposed to go for a jog on Sunday morning and instead walked the entire 3 miles. I didn’t push myself, I was just there, going through the motions. Tuesday night I decided I wasn’t going to my meeting on Wednesday and I might as well go all out before starting over on Wednesday. We had Chinese food for dinner. I didn’t even use all of my flex points, but here I am, 3 days later, still paying for my go for it Tuesday.
Wednesday morning, I woke up and weighed in right around the same as last week. Since then the number on the scale has been creeping up. This morning, I’m up 2 pounds from this time last week! WHAT?! 2 pounds!! I’d hate to see what happens if I really went crazy and ate all my flex points and my activity points. Errr! I can’t give up though. I have lost 50 pounds so far and I will keep at it keeping this lesson in my head. Since I usually eat healthy food for my flex points and obviously I need to stick to that.
After a rough week, and my now 2 pound gain, it would be so say to say screw it, might as well let this week be shot too, but that’s how it starts and I can’t let myself get there again. I cannot give up on myself. I am human, I slip, I make mistakes and it’s where I go from here that will determine where my life takes me next.