It is obvious that I struggle a little bit with self control. It’s like my brain doesn’t tell my body when it’s full when something tastes good. I could sit down and eat, and eat, and eat and not even realize that I’m full until 20 minutes after I have eaten it all.
I find myself having to avoid certain foods for that reason. As far as Weight Watchers goes, I can eat whatever I want, but the problem is I can’t. When I manage to flex my will power muscles, I want to eat everything else in sight.
I obviously still manage to stick to my guns most of the time. I have lost nearly 60 pounds, but my love of food scares me. I’m so afraid of getting back on that track. I wonder if I’ll ever be able to eat like a “normal” person. I often wonder if I’ll ever be able to go to a restaurant and order whatever I want, or if I will always have to watch every bite I put in my mouth. Will I ever be able to eat a mozzarella stick and be able to stop myself from eating 6 more? All I know is, right now, I have to limit that kid of thing. I know it will never be good for me, and I have to keep telling myself, if I’m never able to eat those things, it will be for the best.