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Leader Training Just Around the Corner

I’m super excited to say I have training to become a Weight Watchers leader in about a week and a half.  I’m so excited!  Not only am I looking forward to the motivation to stay at goal weight (you can’t be a leader if you’re not at goal), but I’m really looking forward to sharing my story with other people and hearing about others’ weight loss journeys.

Losing weight is not an easy mission to accomplish.  It never comes off as fast as we want it to, when it does come off, the scars physical and emotional scars left behind, stick with us much longer and once the pounds are gone, it’s a constant battle to keep them gone.  There are some of us who will always have to watch what we eat and will always have to spend hours at the gym to keep our metabolism moving.  It is a constant battle, one that doesn’t end at goal weight.  That’s why I’m so excited about this next chapter in my life, because that is what it is.  I have changed my life, and I’ve changed it for good.

Like another leader said to me the other day, the reason I want to be a leader isn’t about being paid, it’s about motivating myself and others to get healthy and be happier.  I know how inspired I am on a regular basis by all the wonderful people at my meeting and I’m so looking forward to more.

That being said, it will be my first time going away from my family by myself since I met my husband 7 years ago.  My husband went away for military training on a regular basis early in our relationship and our marriage (right up until last year really), and he and I have gone away fro a night without our kids, but I have never gone by myself and left them at home…

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Posted by on November 26, 2013 in Uncategorized

 

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Maintenance Mess

At this Wednesday’s weigh in, I’ll be 4 weeks into my 6 weeks of maintenance before I get the coveted lifetime membership at Weight Watchers.  I’ll be 4 weeks in, but I make no guarantees I won’t be starting over. 

I underestimated how difficult this was going to be.  Be obtain lifetime membership, I need to stay within 2 pounds one side or the other of my goal weight. 

It has not been easy to switch gears.  After more than a year of tracking every single thing I put into my mouth, every single day, It’s been about a week since I tracked anything more than breakfast.  I’ve managed so far to stay within .4 pounds of my goal for 3 weeks, but I have to say, this week, I’m worried.

I do really well during the day, but from about 5 o’clock on, I can’t seem to stay on track.  There’s that little voice in my head saying, “You’re not trying to lose anymore, you’re on maintenance, that one Oreo isn’t going to make or break you.”  Which it won’t, it’s the second Oreo, the milk to go with it, and the snack that follows later.

Today I’m back at it.  I’m telling myself, I’m here to lose over the next few days.  At this point, I don’t think I’ll be over my 2 pounds of wiggle room, but I don’t want to be so close I have to worry.  Tonight is a double duty workout with zumba followed by TRX (it’s a holiday week so no TRX classes on my usual Tuesday and Thursday morning). 

I will stay on track today and I will be within the 2 pounds of my goal weight.  I can do this.

 
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Posted by on November 25, 2013 in Uncategorized

 

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And Just Like That, I’m There

After 1 year and about a month, my weight loss journey has ended and changed.  Today I hit my goal weight!

After weeks of being stuck, I contacted my doctor last Wednesday and talked to her about doing a doctor’s note for me for my goal weight.  It took me 3 weeks to lose .6 pounds and I was getting frustrated, and scared of gaining out of frustration and confusion. 

My doctor’s office called me Monday and told me my note was available to be picked up.  A flood of emotions came over me.  First was relief.  The pressure of that 10 more pounds I wanted for my original goal was all the sudden gone.  The stress of trying to figure out what tricks I had up my sleeve to make my body go back into weight loss mode was relieved. 

Next came fear.  What if I can’t maintain that weight.  What if I lose during my maintain window, or worse, what if I gain.  I have trusted the process for over a year now, but how do I trust it when I’m adding points back into my diet?

Then came disappointment.  This was the first time in my weight loss journey I had set a goal that I would not attain.  I really wanted that weight goal and in the emotion, I let myself down.  I didn’t get there, I gave up on pushing.  Yes I had been stuck for a few weeks, but I let the fear of slipping put the brakes on all together.

As I type this now, I’m at the goal weight set for me by my doctor.  I had 2 pounds left to lose to get there, and after 3 weeks of hardly budging on the scale, I lost 2 pounds. 

I’m still trying to work through all these emotions.  The relief is still there, the fear is still  there and so is the disappointment; that is the one I’m trying the hardest to overcome.  I know I didn’t make it to that number of the scale I had set for myself, but… I lost 102 pounds!  I’ve gotten to a healthy percentage of body fat, I’ve lost 50 inches from my body (64 if you count each leg and each arm separately) and I’ve gone from a size 22 to a 6.  When I started, I wanted to be healthy and I am.  Truth be told, when I first set my goal a year ago, I had set it 15 pounds higher than I am right now. 

I’m trying to focus on what I have accomplished and how much more those accomplishments mean than a number on a scale. 

 
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Posted by on November 6, 2013 in Uncategorized

 

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Glimpses of Who I Used to Be

If you are what you eat, I got glimpses of the person I used to be this past week.  I have had so much success in my weight loss journey that these past few weeks of stuck are really getting to me.  In my quest to find the right balance of calories I have in fact found all the wrong foods.

On Friday, I found myself laying on the couch, munching on my kids’ Halloween candy.  As it always works, 1 piece lead to 2, to 3 and before I knew it, I had consumed my calories and not in a healthy way. 

That same day, I had slept through spin.  I just couldn’t lift my head off the pillow, so after my alarm went off at 5, I turned it off and stayed in bed until about 7. 

Saturday didn’t get any better for me. Those snack sized peanut butter cups sit on the table and call my name so loudly, it is almost impossible to silence them, and while I saw glimpses of my former self laying on the couch munching on mini Musketeers; I have to remind myself that the old me wouldn’t have stopped.  I would have had 4 times as much before.  I would have poured myself a tall glass of milk (not fat free milk for sure), sat down with a full sized bag of M&Ms, 3-4 peanut butter cups, a handful of Musketeers and a few Twix.  Later, every time I walked through the kitchen, I would have grabbed another piece. 
This would have all followed a Halloween night full of munching and indulging.  I would have been that mom who ate all of her kids candy.

So yesterday, I did something the my former self never would have done; I hauled my butt to the gym and while it was only a half an hour, I got my sweat on. 

Thank God everyday is a new day.  Yesterday after my quick trip to the gym, I had a great day.  Only candy was a Tootsie Pop, 1 point and worth it!

 
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Posted by on November 4, 2013 in Uncategorized

 

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