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Humbling Fame

(NOTE: the orange linked words are the videos from the show)

I posted recently about being invited to be on the Rachael Ray Show as a guest for a makeover.  The show has since aired and while I thought maybe I’d believe it happened after I saw it on TV, I still don’t.  It was such a whirlwind experience; a once in a lifetime, but the most amazing part about the entire thing wasn’t the trip to New York City or the makeover, it was the response from family, friends and people I don’t even know.

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Over the last couple of weeks, I have been completely overwhelmed.  I have gotten so many comments and messages of support, and compliments.  While I’m a lot more comfortable in my own skin than I was a year and a half ago, I still am not much for being the center of attention.  When someone comes up to me to talk about it, I tend to let it roll like it’s no big deal; not because it’s no big thing to me, but because I don’t know how to handle the attention.  It’s also an amazing thing to me that people think of me as an inspiration.  I know losing more than 100 pounds with diet and exercise alone in a little over a year is not an easy thing to do.  I have struggled, I have said no to things I wanted, done things I didn’t want to, worked out on days I would have preferred to sleep in, and fought a battle with my mind to realize, I’m not a failure, but to me, I simply did what I needed to do to survive, for myself and for my family.  Hearing I inspire others, has really become inspiration for me; inspiration to keep going, keep trying.

I was able to watch the Rachael Ray Show with some of the most amazing people in my life; women who have inspired me; my mother who has battled hormone cause weight problems for much of her adult life, she taught me how to be a mother, a wife and how to be tough as nails; my sister who has fought her own weight loss battles who was the reason I started going to Weight Watchers to begin with; cousins who have been my best friends growing up and have struggled with their own weight battles along the way, an aunt who was like a second mom to be growing up; my mother in law who has cheered me along the way and who raised an amazing son whom I never could have done any of this without (more on him in a minute); my 2 grandmothers who are both strong and beautiful women;  men who have cheered me on and encouraged me including my father in law who was my zumba partner for a while and my husband who has been amazing, telling my I was beautiful and believing it even when I was at my heaviest.  I couldn’t have done any of this without him; my children are the main reason I started pushing myself the way I did, and a friend who has shown immense courage and strength fighting her own weight loss battle.

While these people filled my living room, people all throughout my community were watching as well.  My aunt called immediately following and we shared sobs over the phone; and the messages that came in on my facebook page were astounding.  Words cannot even begin to describe how moved I was by the response from everyone.  I had people message me saying I had inspired them to get started or to not give up, I had people encouraging me and congratulating me on what I’ve accomplished.  My life has changed so much in the last 18 months and it all started with the decision that I wanted to be a healthier mama for my kids, myself and my husband.  That is what helped me lose the pounds.  What I have found out about myself along the way is what has changed my outlook forever.  I know I am stronger and capable of so much more than I have ever given myself credit for and I look forward to pushing myself further in the future, for now, thank you all for your support and for inspiring me.

 
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Posted by on April 28, 2014 in Uncategorized

 

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Crazy, Amazing, Once in a Lifetime

A little over a week ago, I boarded a plane (for the first time ever in my 29 years) to head to New York City to be a guest on the Rachael Ray Show.  I submitted my weight loss story on her website and less than 48 hours later I was invited to be a guest.  I still can’t believe it. Stuff like this doesn’t happen to people like me.

I tried on some beautiful dresses and felt amazing in all of them, got pampered at a salon and all done up in hair and makeup and felt indescribable as I walked on to the set for my makeover reveal.

Monday it will air, and I’m so excited to see it since the entire experience was so surreal I remember very little of it.

It’s still strange to me to think my journey might inspire others but it is so flattering. I do the best I can and every day is a struggle but I get through and knowing my story could influence someone else to change theirs makes it all worth it.

 
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Posted by on April 18, 2014 in Uncategorized

 

I Think I’ve Lost my Ever Running Mind

Anyone who has read any of my blogs is well aware that I don’t consider myself a “runner.”  I guess that is about to change.  Last year I set a goal for myself to run a 5K without stopping to walk and I told myself, once I accomplished that, I didn’t care if I never ran again, ever!  I’ve dreaded running this season, but I have a couple of 5Ks I’m already planning to do, so I knew I had to get out there.  Unlike last year, after my first run this past weekend, I felt good; I felt strong, and since I’ve already run a 5K, I wanted to set my goal for myself a little higher this year. 

My little higher went a little higher, and then a little higher, and now here I am, setting my mind on a half marathon.  Just typing the words chokes me up.  I’m terrified.  I’m not a fast runner, I’m not a strong runner and I dread running for the same reason I force myself to do it; it challenges me.  It challenges me more than most other types of physical activity.  I have to beat my brain when I run, and that is tougher than the act itself. 

So here’s my plan, as it stands right now, depending on how my training goes.  There is a local 5K this weekend, which I’m pretty sure I’ll end up doing, then from there, I want to run at least 6 miles a week for a couple of weeks.  I’m not following any type of training plan, just my own body at this point.  I figure 2 5Ks a week will push me further than I’ve pushed myself before when it comes to running and I’ll work my way up from there.  I have my sites on a 6-miler in July and by then I should be good to go the 6 miles.  Right now I have my sites set on a half in September.  I figure that will give me plenty of time to train even with my excuses, because you know there’s not a very big window of it being warm enough to run before it’s too hot to run. 

I wanted to put this out on my blog because it will help me stick to it.  Right now, I’m excited about the idea but I know along the way my excitement will fade a bit until right before my races.  I am fully aware I will be racing against myself, and I can’t wait to win. 

Note: My ultimate goal (for next year) is to do a marathon.  I started my weight loss journey at 262 pounds, so it seems very fitting I would run 26.2 miles.  This year, it’s training for the half and as soon as next spring hits, I’m training for the whole thing.  Wait a minute, who am I?

 
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Posted by on April 2, 2014 in Uncategorized

 

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