When I was a kid, all of my cousins referred to me as “Boney Beth.”  I was super tiny and could eat whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted and not gain a pound.  My sister always told me it would catch up to me someday and she was right.

When I started college, I gained the “freshman 15″ and than 30, then 40 and before I knew it, I was up to 199 pounds.  I refused to let myself get over 200 so I started doing Weight Watchers and going to the gym religiously.  I was able to shed 60 pounds in no time and managed to keep it off for a couple of years.

That was until I met my husband.  You know what they say happens when you get comfortable… you gain weight, and I most certainly did.  When we got married I was back up to 175 and within less than a year of our wedding I had ballooned to 242 pounds.  I found out while we were trying to get pregnant with our first child that I have Polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS).  It makes it really easy to gain weight and a lot harder to lose it.

After our first son was born, I continued my upward climb.  By the time I found out I was pregnant with our second son, after 2 years of trying and a tubal pregnancy, I was up above 250 pounds and after our youngest was born I found myself tipping the scale at 262 pounds (2 months after he was born).  I weighed more 2 months after he was born that I did a week after.  And what’s worse… I didn’t think I could possibly look that heavy!

I found myself struggling to get down on the floor to play with my boys, sitting and watching my oldest play at the playground, having to sit after only a short period of time to keep my feet from hurting.  This couldn’t happen!  I’m only 28 years old and I was not living up to being the fun mama I always wanted to be.

And that’s just how I was feeling on the kids front… I was no longer the woman my husband married.  I was much more, and not in a good way!  I don’t want people to look at us and think what in the world is he doing with her, and more I don’t want to think that.  He tells me all the time, I’m beautiful and he loves me and would no matter what, but I don’t, and that means I can’t love him the way he deserves to be.

In October, I started doing Weight Watchers again and here I am.  I’m down 110 pounds and on to maintenance.  I still struggle with food and motivation to exercise, but I’m a different person than I was before.


3 responses to “About

  1. 321pounds

    June 21, 2013 at 11:32 pm

    I nominated you for this blogger-to-blogger Liebster Award. It’s a way to tell you I think your blog is cool and I think others should check it out too. You may have heard and/or received said award in the past, which would be well deserved. Plus it’s got a cool ‘patch’ you can add to your site. So here’s your gold star for you!
    Keep on blogging! You’re great!


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